The other side of tomorrow

evermore hopes of a restless tomorrow
promised lies of a decent sorrow
boundaries of a flowered fury
raging love found guilty in your jury
endless escapades in my mind
a broken memory with no rewind
thousands of re-sewed seams on my heart
no desire to finish, thus impossible to start
explained confusion, unknown curiosity
black meadows of shadow's animosity
the lion's sun rests in my eyes
a signified intention, hear my cries
a lovely taste of your paint
whisper your fears, so softly, so quaint
peace found within broken glass
from a mirrored depiction, i am your last
an appealing mirage, it seems
simple thoughts to yourself, such clever schemes
nostalgia from a brass-covered soul
a walk on the clouds, come down from your stroll
definite meanings of a far-away tomorrow
a taken heart, only meant for borrow?
forevermore, intertwined in your burning fires
so hollow, a wooden love that never expires

the irony of what you start and what you finish

Contemptuously and often,
The end surpasses the beginning
The outline of her eyes have dimmed
Like fallen lights
There is no meaning
There are no more existing ideas
As to how she should pursue her grounds
She has drained herself
She has made no room for those ideologies
For those beliefs in things that have never been
Directly proved
For those hopes that have always failed her
Laughed at her
Mocked her
And that have trained her to be
As open as a book
They often have read and turned her pages
And closed her every sense of being,
Once they were finished
Her heart has bellowed
She is a human ellipsis

To be changed by another,
Other than one’s own-self,
Causes false identity


She is carrying her bones in a bag
Watching them drag along the earth
Her demeanor is no longer of consistency
She has melted
Parts of her drip onto the earth
But she doesn’t turn back to look
At how she is missing
She stops and stares
But all she sees is the end
And as she walks further
Ironically, every part of her has melted right back
To the beginning
While, nothing approaches the end

Legendary Love

There’s always a gaping hole
That I’m fighting to fill
Whether it’s in the world or if it’s in my heart
I have been in so many wars
With myself, just to protect myself
From all the distress
I’ve seen the hearts of many
I loved them, each in a different way,
But when the disillusionment seeped
From my pupils, and into
This abstract pulsating entity,
I could see it all, I could feel it all
They didn’t want me to see
They didn’t want me to hear the words that boomed
From their insides like thunder raging through the clouds
Sometimes I wonder how I still know how to love
Sometimes I’m proud of myself
And other times, I am ashamed
Ashamed that I love hard
Ashamed that I see the heartless creatures roaming around
In search for one to crush
And I naively, leave my heart resting on my sleeve
It’s almost as if something in me gives me an unlimited supply of hearts
Each time, one is destroyed
And I hurry to pick up the pieces myself,
A new one is formed
But something tells me that one day there aren’t going
To be anymore waiting for me
There aren’t going to be anymore to help me hide the pain
I can feel it
Some days, my heart beats slower than it used to
I have concealed all that I felt once broke me
Into some kind of reliquary beyond these smiles and hopeful eyes
When that day comes
My wrath will unveil itself,
From behind that beautiful curtain
Oh, and what disillusionment there will be
I will spread my flaming fires unto them
I will mount mirrors up everywhere
That show their true reflections
I will break the bad bones of their fathers and mothers
That are to blame for the way they feel, for they way they express
What has been buried in their genes
And once everything is in a favorable position
I will shatter into pieces and my love will spread unto all
I will be a legend,
Yet a legend that has left her mark when she collected all those hearts
I won’t ever come back,
Because this war with myself, to protect myself,
Won’t save me
Until I save the rest
And both can’t be kept
I’ll go away
I’ll go away
I won’t ever come back
That is my dream,
I have saved the world
But the world has not saved me